I called at 7:30 this morning to make a appt. and she said can you come in today. So I went to a 10:30 appt. The tech had the radiologist, look at the x-rays, and told me they wanted to do a ultrasound. The ultrasound tech, had the Dr. look at the ultrasound. He said they saw a shadow and they wanted to do a biopsy. Two and a half hours later, I am sent home; my fate in a petri dish. I now wait, for the pathology to come back.

What terrifies me is not being diagnosed with cancer again, or chemo or even losing a breast. The fear that emotionally paralyzes me is that if this is cancer, it will be a very advanced stage cancer.